I have no words
I just
need to get something out
even if it’s shit
I only cried when he left
I’d like to cry more but don’t really know how
I told him I’m okay with being sad
but then again I didn’t get out of bed ’til noon today

I feel content
sad and content
trying not to kick myself for being anxious
trying not to blame myself for his leaving
I don’t know that I ever believe when people say they’re leaving
why is that I wonder

ah fuck
I’m good with being alone
I’m used to being alone
being alone, is easy
can I get a ‘hell yeah only children!’

maybe it just hasn’t sunk in


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anxious 20-something in new england busy finding meaning in other peoples houses critics welcome

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