Tag: life

here I am
new house
new home

it came on so suddenly
I’m sleeping in a different bed than I thought I would

here
I will never be hungry
I will never be lonely
I will never have the fear
of being left

but I am still heartbroken
because the bed I thought I’d sleep in has likely been filed by another
because the love I thought I’d had was thinner than my own

I am missing the blazing intoxicating love
longing the love that made me feel
as if I was floating through life
love that feels once in a lifetime
love that fuels all your passions

love in one self, two forms

but often fear, at least in the young
is stronger than love

now I will crawl into my new home
not what I expected
but beautiful all in all

mutual

i forgot
what it’s like
to be
wanted
by someone
i wanted

forgetting
a distorted
ugly
view
of love

to feel
the tenderness
that comes
with just a
look

that might
break you

something
more
than
only
hunger

the
unfamiliarity
of kindness
without
ulterior
motivation

the tenderness
of something
that
may
have become
too ravenous
for tenderness

it changes
the way
you
smell

drawing in
the most
unexpected
visitors

often leaving
the wrong
message
in a
scent

but
you don’t care

when you have
them
who left
that scent
on your skin

which is all too forgettable

you know
because
it is a surprise
every time

i can
drink this wine
and tomorrow will be
fine

no
normal people
lose their footing
over
one
drink

i can
kiss you
and not
feel
empty

is
that
just the line
you
fed me

and i
can hold you
while you sleep
without wanting you

or
at least
I will say
I don’t

are these things
really
so
disconnected

i can
be
fragile
&
vulnerable

without aches
of regretting
what
I’ve told you

i can
run
to the
woods
and live my days

without
everyday
mandates
nipping at my heels

-intimacy